So I went to Governor's Square, just to buy a gift certificate for Kevin, my son-in-law whose birthday is today, and I decided to stroll through a couple of stores. The mall was packed with people taking advantage of post-holiday sales, returning items they either didn't like or which didn't fit them or using the gift certificates they received. So I didn't think I wanted to do much shopping until I went into the NewYork something store and saw some clothes I thought I would like. I grabbed 2 shirts (neither which I bought, because they were not on sale, and I had a hard time justifying my compulsion to "just get them" {gawd!! that was hard}), and like 9 pairs of pants. Size 12 and size 14.
Right now as I write this, I am wearing a size 12 pair of jeans. Unbuttoned. Unzipped.
OK, I will try the 14s. I only grabbed 2 different 14s, convinced that wasn't my size, but you never know, maybe I should check. Just in case. . Yes, too loose. Where did my butt go this time? I cannot make the outline of it since they are so loose! It makes it look like I don't even have a butt. From my waist to my heels my body is on a straight line. No curves, no figure, no butt. Like a box. Shit! Now what?
The store does not carry size 13. Does any store carry size 13? I folded the ones that were on little piles on the tables, I hung those that were on hangers, and looked at them. Sadly. And thought, "I don't have a size". Ahh!! But I can lose some weight....heavens knows I don't plan on gaining any...so I will buy one anyway. A nice little gray striped one.
I justified my compulsion.